I gave up doing these but apparently people find them encouraging, so here we are//
DOUBT. This month has been a month filled with doubt like never before. Self doubt; in my ability, in my competence, in my identity, and in my value. God doubts; because of unanswered prayers, moments of loneliness, moments of failure, and seemingly intangible dreams. I’ve had a million thoughts telling me to just give up. To just settle. To do it in my own strength. To stop trusting. To stop waiting.
But I know that HE is in the waiting. I know that HE is not an emotion or a tingling sensation. And I know He’s there. He’s been there every step of the way. I know He is who He says He is. He’s faithful. He’s good.
So I’ve had to battle my own mind relentlessly. I’ve had to speak those truths over and over. I’ve had to silence the enemy and literally SCREAM peace over myself. And even though it’s been hard, I’m thankful for this struggle, because it gave me the word that I’m declaring over next year: WAR. I am unwilling to give up. I won’t stop trusting. I won’t stop waiting. I know that the breakthrough is worth the wait. I am not going down without a fight. And if I’m fighting, this time there will be no settling, no compromise. Where I am going fears have no place, lies have no place, insecurity has no place, discouragement has no place, and pride has no place.
I love this time of year because it is a reminder that Hope is alive. I have a hope in Jesus. This hope has carried me through my past, and this hope will propel me into my future. MERRY CHRISTMAS! Keep me in your prayers.
